Constant Pursuit

Liana V.
Dec 15, 2025
4 min read

Constant Pursuit

I imagine or suppose I am in constant pursuit of You-God. I seek You in the quiet and the noisy. I seek you in the still and in motion. I build. I walk. I seek. In the glitz. In the twinkle. The slow and the bustle. This season and throughout.

Though to be honest it seems I am grasping to catch the wind at times. I say, I’m seeking Your face and not Your hand - but I long for the reward of feeling, knowing, and understanding. I desire for the appetite of my senses to be quenched by you.

At times it seems this pursuit is running with no clarity, with no destination, direction, or end- how do I know I run the race? I want to feel the race. I’m leaning into my flesh’s pursuit of feeling.

I fill slow moments with lesser things and distractions, monotony and chores. And I wonder if you’re asking me to be a little more like Mary and a little less like this. (Luke 10:38-40)To sit and not pursue. To still instead of busy. To wait instead of wander. To trust instead of feel. To discover the important and the privilege given.

Then I hear the Lord whisper this scripture:

“Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? If I ascend into heaven, You are there; If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there. If I take the wings of the morning, And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, Even there Your hand shall lead me, And Your right hand shall hold me. If I say, “Surely the darkness shall fall on me,” Even the night shall be light about me; Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You, But the night shines as the day; The darkness and the light are both alike to You.” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139‬:‭7‬-‭12‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

My sweet Lord, my loving God reminds me in His own word in feeling and without He is near. He has never called me to walk by gut or feeling- but to walk by trust and faith. And it’s here in this space (both dull and awkward) that I fully recognize my likeness with sheep and how desperately I am in need of My good Shepherd.

“He will feed His flock like a shepherd; He will gather the lambs with His arm, And carry them in His bosom,” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40‬:‭11‬a NKJV‬‬

“But He made His own people go forth like sheep, And guided them in the wilderness like a flock; And He led them on safely, so that they did not fear; But the sea overwhelmed their enemies.”‭‭Psalms‬ ‭78‬:‭52‬-‭53‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

““I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd gives His life for the sheep.” ‭‭John‬ ‭10‬:‭11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

“I am the good shepherd; and I know My sheep, and am known by My own.” John‬ ‭10‬:‭14‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

I crave nearness to the Lord more desperately than ever before. There is nothing else that will satisfy my desire for intimacy with Him- there is no substitute for Jesus. No feeling is enough.

God isn’t apathetic or antisocial- He is relatable, lowly, and kind. Social standing, popularity, nobility, or wealth are not characteristics He chooses or seeks, but He desires the humble and low.

“Now there were in the same country shepherds living out in the fields, keeping watch over their flock by night. And behold, an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were greatly afraid. Then the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord. And this will be the sign to you: You will find a Babe wrapped in swaddling cloths, lying in a manger.” And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying: “Glory to God in the highest, And on earth peace, goodwill toward men!”” ‭‭Luke‬ ‭2‬:‭8‬-‭14‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Jesus-Immanuel-Messiah-God robed in flesh- His birth announcement was shared with field dwellers, the most low in society.

It was they who heard the news first, they who encountered Angels, and they a heavenly orchestra of praise! Wow! And it is with those lowly, those outcast, and poor that Jesus himself identifies Himself-The good Shepherd.

I keep myself prostrate before you God humbly and low- crying “Abba Father,I need You, I’m desperate for You.” You know me. You see me. You made me. You love me.

“For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You.”

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting.” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139‬:‭13‬-‭18‬, ‭23-24‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

This is the “Mary” posture you beckon me to. The fully known, fully loved, formed by Your hand, nothing hidden, laid bare, humbled, low, and in need of nearness to Jesus-the One who calls me by name. To receive the privilege to sit at Your feet, to feast and delight in just the knowing you are near. God with me!